Bees & Boys

This season is tough! I know it is tough for everyone, and I'm not alone in my struggle...

but I have been questioning myself constantly... Are the boys learning enough? Should Charlotte be going to school? Am I doing enough to help them? Are they being challenged? Maybe we should just enroll them? Every day, all the time, I have these thoughts, and they all revolve around the unknown. I HATE the unknown, I don't use the "h" word lightly. I really wish there was an end in sight with COVID and all the fear, sickness, division, loneliness, and uncertainty that surrounds it.

Today I felt weighed down by my own self-doubts and the world in general, and I knew we needed to be outside. It was perfect weather to check the bees and see how their winter stores were looking, so I suited the three of us up! We drove to Prairie lake to check on the 4-H beehives and threw in a couple of fishing poles too.

That did the trick. Bees and fresh air! I am happy to report the bees looked great! We've had mild weather so far, and their winter honey stores and numbers looked awesome. I did smash one hive beetle so next time it's warm I'll put in a couple of traps for those pests.

Pierson caught some fish and let them go, Auggie swang on the playset and ran around, and we all watched a bald eagle swoop down to the lake to grab a fish! We were the only ones there to see, it was so peaceful and nice.

Our nature-nurture was exactly what the doctor ordered. There were countless gifts sent from God himself we observed. I love days like this and I think that our boys are learning a lot more than math this year. They have so much freedom here at home to explore and just be boys. Pier is outside with a pole at the pond every single day it's above freezing, and Auggie has a ball in his hand or his skateboard out. (I am getting better at my spiral, but it isn't anything to brag about.) I have to remind myself often, why we are doing what we are doing this year. It's hard, no doubt, and I can't wait for life to be normal again but I am going to work on soaking up these moments and quit questioning everything. There isn't an answer, that's hard to accept, but we can learn to lean on our Creator, the Prince of Peace himself.

Watch the bees... and let's soak in these days and all the vitamin D we can!